deans whole. sorry deans whole actual abandonment issues are summed up in that one line i’m so. like john leaving them in motel rooms to hunt and john leaving him behind in the home because he screwed up. sam leaving dean behind to go to stanford. people leave him when he’s bad or not worth staying for or does something wrong, and if he can only prove himself worthy and good enough, maybe they will come back for him. and that’s also the core of why dean and cas never nut up. it’s “you left” / “you never asked me to stay”. and i know it’s just bad writing and dean was so fucking rude to cas the whole time lmao but what if he was sitting there the whole time thinking if i’m good will you come back? if i’m good will you come back? if i’m good will you come back?